Bodysnatcher - Twelve/Seventeen (Official Music Video)

"This Heavy Void" Available everywhere 1/31/20 via Stay Sick Recordings
https://staysickrecordings.com/collections/bodysnatcher-this-heavy-void

“Twelve/seventeen is a very important song to me because it actually helped me let out emotions I had been holding in for so long. The song is about my mom losing her battle with breast cancer when I was only twelve years old. It’s called twelve/seventeen not because that’s the day she passed, but because that was her birthday. We included the Christmas tree in the video because it was her tradition to have friends over and decorate it for her birthday every year. The clips in the video are also all real home movie clips, and that was very important to me that we included those. I hope this song hits for you, and helps you feel something.” Kyle Carter

LYRICS:

Help me forget

You always looked back
Until that day
When I looked into your eyes
You were so far away
Clear as day
There was nobody home
I grit my teeth
I was alone

It’s been years
And I can’t get you out of my thoughts
I want to forget
My stomachs tied in knots

Am I guilty
Of wanting to forget?
I’m cursed
With that look in your eyes

A demon inside
You were reborn to die
His hand gripped your soul
And tried to take it all away
A demon inside
I saw the struggle in your eye
It never goes away
Nothing gold can stay

You always looked back
until that day

When I looked into your eyes
You were so far away
This disease has taken you
And I can’t ask you to stay

This still creeps into my mind
How the fuck could I forget
When you asked me
“Can I die yet”

Directed by Eric DiCarlo @ SquareUp Studios